Happy New Year

To everyone who reads, a blessed new year to you (:

I've made EIGHT resolutions that I'll keep to myself for now. On the 31st of December 2011 I'll reveal them and see how much I've kept to them or done anything at all! OK?!

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Yay, the Malaysian football team wins some cup in a very controversial game and we get a public holiday on Friday. Just the attitude we need, rewarding for nothing. =.= Ohh wait, hasn't that been going on for a long while now. Tehe.

:)

Ohh ohh! And when Nicol David is the World Number 1 in Squash or when Lee Chong Wei is the World Number 2 (or something) and have proven time after time, record after record that they are the best, ohh where were those public holidays?

Hmm! Food for thought. :D

But I'm sure we all see a pattern somewhere. Don't we??

My resolution for the rest of my life is to live a very simple life in a very cold country somewhere.

Update

Oh!!! This blog has been abandoned :/ and since it's my holidays, I shall do the updating.

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING THO, what a big ass bummer :'(

And the dissertation was left in a corner to rot while the holidays went on and on. I blame Christmas. Now that Christmas is over, it's time to shift the blame to the excitement of the New Year! And once New Year has come, the blame will be shifted to the Depression of School Beginning. What not with all the parking problems and wonky schedules, there is no better reason to be depressed that school is starting. Oh and the fact that its the last 6 months or so :'(

So the year that was, not so eventful I guess. Probably the only achievement would be getting really good results for the higher dip. exams. Other than that, I changed my phone not ONCE, not TWICE, but THRICE in the span of one year, I must really never ever do that again. And yeah life is so mundane there isn't much to say about it, maybe when I remember what had happened in the course of life in the past year. Of course life is mundane if compared to the lives of others, I have no idea of 365 days of 2010 just passed by like that. And my life doesn't feel as eventful as the ones I see in television, Kimora Lee Simmons or anybody for that matter, television makes one feel small :'(

Degree has been shitty thus far. I feel very lost in most of the subjects, not because of a lack of interest, rather a lack of an ability to comprehend. Of course, what there is to comprehend remains questionable. Here's hoping the second and final semester is not the nightmare it has been. Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I even enrolled myself here, standards are questionable, some lecturers don't even speak proper English. :/ I mean, seriously, how is this going to reflect on my resumé later on!!! Am I bound to have a horrible life and career because of this mistake I've made?!?!?! Or am I to blame myself X_X

I'd like to think that everyone else shares my thoughts as well lah. Cos in terms of infrastructure and all, the university is OKAY lah, it isnt exactly a shack in the middle of the forest of Sang Kancil or what BUT in terms of what input we've received combined with what output we've given, I don't really feel like it has been much, even combined. Do you?? :/ Do you feel what you've learnt in the past semester (if you've continued with me) to be of any use to the development of your career later on???? Is this how university is meant to make one feel?? Miserable?? Small?? Left out in the cold?!?!?!

The question of what is to come next has been looming in my head but I've never bothered to give it much thought, as above, there is always a reason to procrastinate.

What I want to achieve in the coming year is a lot, I wonder if it is even achievable..but all I want are good grades, a good job to come my way and good luck and the best of times through out. Lets not be greedy now heh :D Sigh but where do I even start ._. Sometimes I wonder if I could just die tomorrow and not have to worry about all of this shit (no am not suicidal, just the prospect of not having to think of all of this) But then again, the Church condemns such behaviour and thus shall I as well.

Something else I've learnt about friendship in the past year is that it can be based on a lot of lies and deception. And that is not the sort of friendship I want to have and keep for years and years to come. What is the point of not being able to be yourself with your friends, when you have to put on a mask and weave tales of this and that just to keep your friends. And in the process I realized that true and good friends are really hard to come by. Its so damn difficult it's one of my resolutions to be a better friend as well :'( But then there's always that quote to remind you that a good friend makes the best out of things instead of expecting for the best or whatever along those lines. If that is so then..gee..maybe I should start looking harder.

And another resolution is to update this blog more frequently. :( so that one day I can come back here and laugh at myself for being such a fool.

ps: Since you probably didn't give me a christmas present, can you like message me on msn or on facebook or whatever so I know someones reading :( Its nice to know that I have an audience. Of course if I don't then..nvm lah!

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